Today I am a 21 and 3 day old "adult?"... I've had this cough and cold for 3 weeks now, and I feel physically weak. I don't usually get sick for this long - max is 2-3 days. Yesterday I woke up and I was trying to look for ways of re-sitting the exam I was to have, as I felt like I couldn't bring myself to sit for it. So I looked online at my Uni Website but then it looked complicated and I didn't have a medical certificate to prove I've been sick. So that cancels that option! So I ended up going to Uni with watery eyes, a blocked nose, a cough and pain to my upper left shoulder. I wasn't able to study properly for this exam either because I just couldn't concentrate properly with these symptoms. So I called my friend and asked if I could feed off his brain before the exam. So I ended up sitting for the exam, I think it was ok? I missed out on two questions because I didn't know them. But hopefully I get that 28% that I need to pass this unit.
ENOUGH ABOUT THAT...
What's happening with me spiritually? OKAY! So I haven't been hearing from God since Sunday after Prayer Mountain. What happened at Prayer Mountain was great, God moved and clearly broke through a lot of things.
The weight of Gods love and His presence brought me to tears...
So I was speaking to a friend on Monday night and he was asking me "how I was" and I told him I was good, that everything’s been great, I feel like I'm having a mountain experience. Then he reminded me saying "do you know what happens after the mountain experience... ?" I finished it off saying "find yourself in the valley".
So it was Tuesday, which was yesterday that I truly felt as if my time on the mountain was over for this season and I definitely didn't want it to be.
A piece of my journal from last night:
MAN! This better not be a valley moment coming up... I've been on top of everything the past couple of months. Please God keep me on the mountain for a little while longer. Please! I'm not ready to go and enter another valley yet. What is it that You want to bring me through this time? What is it that You want me to learn now? What am I going to lose this time? What am I going to gain out of this? I'm physically weak at the moment but my spiritual well-being is still pretty good. Please don't send me to the valley just yet. Not until you've given me back my physical strength to tackle this valley up ahead. I know there's no escaping this valley moment so would You armor me and protect me for what is to come. Please give me strength to be there for myself as well as my family, my friends, my bible study group and the rest of the leadership team.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me”-Psalm 23:4
There's a whole lot of different things happening in my life right now, things I am aware of and things I am not aware of. Lord give me clarity to what I see and even more clarity and discernment for the unknown. Don't lead me to this valley blinded. Don't lead me to this valley alone. The last valley I entered it alone and it caused me much pain and it took me a long time to find a way out of it. But above everything let Your will be done.
I kind of feel lonely at the moment. Like I don't have a friend to stand by me, stick up for me, care for me and watch out for me. Please send me a friend. Someone to watch my back as I enter this valley, someone to help guide me, someone to encourage me to keep on going, someone that would help fight alongside me, someone who won't leave me stranded, someone who'll lend a hand when I fall down, someone who'll pray for me and someone who'll blow the horn when danger is approaching. Just please give me someone that is even more than the little I am able to do for others. I need that... I trust You.
“One sees great things from the valley; only small things from the peak.”
G.K Chesterton
ENOUGH ABOUT THAT...
What's happening with me spiritually? OKAY! So I haven't been hearing from God since Sunday after Prayer Mountain. What happened at Prayer Mountain was great, God moved and clearly broke through a lot of things.
The weight of Gods love and His presence brought me to tears...
So I was speaking to a friend on Monday night and he was asking me "how I was" and I told him I was good, that everything’s been great, I feel like I'm having a mountain experience. Then he reminded me saying "do you know what happens after the mountain experience... ?" I finished it off saying "find yourself in the valley".
So it was Tuesday, which was yesterday that I truly felt as if my time on the mountain was over for this season and I definitely didn't want it to be.
A piece of my journal from last night:
MAN! This better not be a valley moment coming up... I've been on top of everything the past couple of months. Please God keep me on the mountain for a little while longer. Please! I'm not ready to go and enter another valley yet. What is it that You want to bring me through this time? What is it that You want me to learn now? What am I going to lose this time? What am I going to gain out of this? I'm physically weak at the moment but my spiritual well-being is still pretty good. Please don't send me to the valley just yet. Not until you've given me back my physical strength to tackle this valley up ahead. I know there's no escaping this valley moment so would You armor me and protect me for what is to come. Please give me strength to be there for myself as well as my family, my friends, my bible study group and the rest of the leadership team.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me”-Psalm 23:4
There's a whole lot of different things happening in my life right now, things I am aware of and things I am not aware of. Lord give me clarity to what I see and even more clarity and discernment for the unknown. Don't lead me to this valley blinded. Don't lead me to this valley alone. The last valley I entered it alone and it caused me much pain and it took me a long time to find a way out of it. But above everything let Your will be done.
I kind of feel lonely at the moment. Like I don't have a friend to stand by me, stick up for me, care for me and watch out for me. Please send me a friend. Someone to watch my back as I enter this valley, someone to help guide me, someone to encourage me to keep on going, someone that would help fight alongside me, someone who won't leave me stranded, someone who'll lend a hand when I fall down, someone who'll pray for me and someone who'll blow the horn when danger is approaching. Just please give me someone that is even more than the little I am able to do for others. I need that... I trust You.
“One sees great things from the valley; only small things from the peak.”
G.K Chesterton
When i think about it, the above quote has truth to it. When I look at the things I have gone through in the valley He has not only shown me who I can be, but He has made me that of what He has shown. At the peak of the mountain He also does great things but it was a result of the valley experience. So now I am not so much in fear of going through the valley again as I know that He will show me greater things and do greater things in my life!
“I have a dream that one day every valley shall be exalted, every hill and mountain shall be made low, the rough places will be made straight and the glory of the Lord shall be revealed and all flesh shall see it together.” Martin Luther King Jnr
I guess this blog also goes out to a special and dear friend of mine, who I know is going through a valley moment of their own. May the glory of the Lord be revealed in your life and may He strengthen your heart as you wait upon Him.
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