He speaks to me..

It's amazing how someone that is so big, so powerful, all-knowing and I believe is the most famous in the world could have the time to listen to such an ordinary person like myself and be responsible for making me feel 100 times better than I was before I chose to call on Him.

Today I woke up to a reminder on my phone that it was my "full-day fast". For those people who read my blog (which will be very few, because I haven't told much people about it). The leadership team of my youth group YD have been doing a 40 day fast. Today is the 22nd day! I chose to have mine on the 22nd day because it's my birthday number (June 22).

It took me awhile to get started into prayer this morning, so I just made sure the house was clean and my room was tidy. Whilst cleaning I received a text message from Ps. Ernie (a pastor I met when I was doing Missions in the Philippines in December of 07).

The text message read:

"new day, new blessings, don't let yesterdays failures ruin the beauty of today because each day has its own promise of love, forgiveness, joy and success..."

(The text message was incomplete though...the whole message didn't get through to me..)

Nevertheless, I appreciated two things... (1) That the message brought a sense of comfort to me and (2) That Ps. Ernie actually remembered me.

I love how God encourages me through people... I love that!

So I went to my room and laid down in front of me 5 things: my bible, my diary, my notebook, my phone and a pen. I didn't feel ready to pray yet, so I decided to read the last chapters of 2 Chronicles in our church Bible Reading Plan... After that I began to just worship God with song in my room the first song that came to my heart was "A Pure Heart"

A pure heart, that's what I long for.

A heart that follows hard after Thee

A pure heart, that's what I long for.

A heart that follows hard after Thee.

A heart that hides Your Word

So that sin will not come in.

A heart that's undivided

But one You rule and reign

A heart that beats compassion

That pleases You, my Lord.

A sweet aroma of worship

That rises to Your throne.

And that's really what I want to do, have a heart that follows hard after Thee, a heart that is ruled and reigned by Him. After I sang this song in my room about 4 times over I got a text message on my phone, so I checked it and it was the other half of the previous text I got from ps Ernie...

It read: "Have a blessed day with Jesus..."

At that moment my heart just lit up with CHARA (Joy). Yesterday afternoon when I got home from Church and I was faced with a situation that would have been unbearable had it gotten any worse than it had already, my heart felt so heavy, I felt so helpless and I didn't know what to do but cry out to God for help in my room whilst my friends were downstairs eating and watching tv. But today... I just felt God quiet my heart and my thoughts and His peace just covered me.

I love how God gives me peace in my restlessness... I love that!

So I continued to pray lifting up whatever God placed in my heart to pray for.

I love the way God reveals His heart through various things when I spend time with Him. Each song that came to my heart as I spent time with Him He would pinpoint a person that either needed the encouragement found in the song lyrics or to basically pray for for a circumstance for that person and declare the promises of God in their life. God is amazing..

I thought I was missing out, when my friends tell me they get visions or dreams from God that show them this and that, and it happens. But I wasn't missing out! God speaks to me in a different way. I just didn't acknowledge that my God has been speaking to me through my worship times with Him, the time I set aside for Him- that's when He speaks to me and that's when He shows me things that He can do through me and for others. So now that I know how He chooses to speak to me, that's what I'm going to do so I can hear Him.

God speaks to me when I'm spending time basking in His presence... and I love it!

I can't believe that God can use me and choose to speak through an ordinary and incomplete person like me. He continues to exceed my expectations and He continues to be patient, gracious and merciful to a person like me who falls short many of the times.